That overwhelming feeling of what you were hoping to happen is not happening at all. Not even close. You wonder what you did wrong to have this happen. You play back scenarios in your head of what should have happened. It’s all so overwhelming that it’s hard to breath. You wonder what life will be like now. Wondering if you will ever get what you actually want.
Is this all just a game and only cheaters win? Those who can give up their soul to win. Maybe they are okay with having a faker version of a win. Meaning they win but at the cost of everyone else losing. They can live knowing that they hurt everyone else along the way in order to win. Disappointment.
When do you think you could have it all and is it at the cost of someone else?